Yamneko's Diary

 Ah forgot to do this. 

I've finished the 1st alice cosplay sewing, got most of the wig detangled, applied for two jobs, and I feel like there was another thing i've done, but can't think on it. We'd gone to Florida to look at places for his folks, uh yeah.

I'm still crying at not having a working sewing machine I can use dependably. Today my car is gonna cost us 615 to get some things fixed/serviced, so any hopes I had of sneakily or convincing hubs on letting me get the 600 machine is gone. 

So I'm going to apply for more jobs. Between trying to save (we've had to take the money that was to go to savings to checking twice now) and trying to get a new sewing machine... I just really need a job that will pay me more than minimum wage and give me over 10 hours a week, AT LEAST! Less than that isn't really worth it. 

I've been going through a period of "feeling useless", more so since I'd gone from "gotta clean all the things" to not having that anymore... so I'll have to work extra hard so when I go and apply for everything and get not reply or just rejects, i wont feel super useless and unhirable to everyone. I'm going to try to work on doing more little pictures, and see if I can't start maybe selling them for like $5-$10 a pop. 

I can feel the depression threatening to take over, since I dont have a lot to distract myself and the world is on fire. 

work out
finish art test thing
do some sketches
work on wig

I dont think there's a lot I need to *do* today. This is what I'm aware of. taking the car into the shop so I wont have mobility, but hopefully not for long.

Need to buy:
pants (s8 boot cut)
bra (34d?) 
underwear (xl)


12:30pm: today is a slow going today too. Hubs took a while to get out of bed, and after dropping the car off, i pretty much started trying to buy those clothes online. Realized I'll need to go to the store and buy the pants, 1) target didnt want to ship them to me, 2) not confident in buying without trying on from another store (since sizing numbers are made up) so just looking for the other items online. Trying to find a good basic gray v-neck tshirts for hubs. A bit harder than expected on amazon. 

844pm: I did not work out at all. Definitely when my day starts late, i dont get to it. Gotta start working on getting up at 8 I think. I did my little art test thing, and then asked for some suggestions on things to paint, and working on a mermaid with a mercat. I do however, feel awful since it's like $615 to tune up and repair the car. And the stuff I bought earlier. ;-; man.. could have gotten a new sewing machine but noooo car needed a new tire and 50k mile service. Ouch. 

work out
dishes
grocery store
more emotes
more photoshop drawing
Weekly Cleaning
Try on London Alice cosplay - take some photos
work on wig

Today's weekly "Do thing" is Games! Play some Odin Sphere! 

1pm: i went to the coffee shop by the grocery store becaue I wanted to hang out and have a latte, and decided to have a crepe too... really I should have gone to the crepe place. The crepe at the coffee shop wasn't great; I kinda had forgotten about it and wanted to go to a shop near the grocery store because I was going to go there afterwards. The crepe place is by the grocery store. Ah well. I put on most of the cosplay and took some photos. I think it looks fine! Yeah there's a lot not "accurate" about it, but W/E! Should be close enough if someone was going to recognize it they'll be able to (how many will remember this outfit is a toss in the air) BUt it's been a good confidence boost to snap some photos of it. 

I'm gonna sit down and do some testing/doc update, and then art I think. This evening I'm gonna work on the wig, in the craft room and listen to music or the audio book. Pretty chill day today. 

3pm: honestly im not sure if "sketchy headshot" counts as photoshop drawing, but it;s what I did, and we'll call it good enough for now. Also sent an emote for approval/change requests... so that's done for now?? (i could work on moooorreee but lets play some games instead) 

work out
clean guest room
- pick everything up,
- find place for stuffed animals 
- wash/change sheets
get list of tasks for the week
weekly house cleaning

 I'm not sure what else. My wrist is still a bit angry so should try and wear my brace more during the day. 

10am: ugh today is gonna be a slow day for me, hard to do anything. 

12:30pm: i've at least picked up and vacuumed the guest room. I need to figure out where to put the stuffed toys, and after that I can do the sheets. Until then, IDK. I still havent worked out. I'm gonig to have lunch, deal with the pug, ask about my tasks and then work out. That's my plan anyway. 

Home
Work out
grocery store
get pet medicine
vacuum litter mess; also wipe area down


Personal
 Sew Apron
decide what medium i'd like to work in; digital or a physical one, and which one??
art class or sewing class?
make some OC art with Mewdeline (both in MH style and PSG style

Hubs has asked for more emotes. We'll see what I can do. 

12pm: also found the yarn I need for tomorrow! yay! I snacked a little, so the dog is being extra whiny at me... i think I'll take care of him, eat lunch for real, and start sewing until I get too hot/hit a snag and need to walk away, and then maybe do some art? my wrist is hurting today too so I dont know how much I'll do.

I'm feeling anxious because sewing machine. I would really like to get the one my friend rec'd me, but he kinda bawked at the price.. .so trying to find something cheaper, but anything I find is either going to be garbage (like singers stuff) or doesnt seem to do what I will want to do (oh this one doesnt handle knits well, so that's not something I want) 

Workout
take care to get tires inspected
clean fridge
start bathroom?
finish potato pug emote
page of doodles
Work on cosplay
Stay off computer!!! 

1:15pm: ugh apron i think needs to be redone. I do not like how it is AT ALL! 

 work out
clean kitchen
check sheet of stuff to clean
get tires rebalanced
try on cosplay
art??
get list of new tasks

4:30: 3 hours were wasted on getting the tires done, so I didnt get to cleaning until later than I wanted; but it's coming along, just means the cosplay and art stuff just probably not going to be done. 

Also did not work out because I'm sore from yesterday/walking around a lot today, and cleaning. 

 Oh man! end of the month review! 

So these past two weeks,  I havent done a lot! Trying to work on sewing... but I havent. I havent been drawing really... 

But I really want to! I feel like I really want to get back into the stuff, and work on a schedule/days to work on the stuff. 

Yeah that might be better. "Today I work on X projects" and not have so much a time set, but just "when I feel like doing something or having nothing else to do, I do This" 

I did work on the apron today, and I honestly feel like there's a lot wrong with it still lol. I need to redo where the stuff attactches on the waist band I think, and might need to redo the neckline, but it's coming a long?? it's not like super shitty terrible.

These next two weeks I need to focus on cleaning though, my parents are coming and it would be nice to have the place not be a mess. 
Also want to work on doing more art work, and sewing the rest of the cosplay, and working on the wig, and seeing about that Vorpal blade. 

I have a busy month in terms of events and things going on, but it should all be good!! 

I feel like my mood has been a lot more positive, a few negative days here and there, but it's been good. 

 work out
 clean bathroom
 clean beanbag
MAKE WAND

10am: oh it's only 10! that's not bad. I'm going to do dishes from yesterday and the dishwasher, make the wand, and then work on other cleaning. A game opens up today, so I imagine I'll be spending most of the day on that, and then this evening is Anime night, so friends are coming over.