Feb. 22nd, 2017 09:01 am
yamneko: (anime)
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Feeling slugging today.

10:36: les be honest, Im starting to feel depressed and just want to cry. Working out is probably not gonna happen.

11:25pm: I was afraid of this. Today it hurts. Today I am depressed. I feel like all I did to try and stop it did not do so. This rather sucks. I want to cry.

6:25pm: I didn't do a lot today, pretty much bummed and watched tv with the dog. But someone commented that the profile I was working on was cool, so that def help lift my spirits. I'm feeling betetr this evening that I did this morning or afternoon for sure. 
yamneko: (anime)

oing bad. the day was good, and I felt fine till this evening and I didnt know what I wanted to do with myself.

I thought maybe play games, there are so many I want to finiah, but I didnt want to play any of them. I dont know. not nor did I want to read a novel, or manga, or watch any tv. even though at least one of those things sounds good.

and then it felt like I was giving upANOTHER things inlioed, and I'm slowly losing everything that well, was me. I wanted to draw earlier, but couldn't manage myself to go get a pencil. I have no idea why. I've given up.

and I hate myself for it and I don't know why i have or what is going on. I've spent like 5 minutes just ugly crying over it. I dont want my husband to find out and try and comfort me or to worry, because there is nothing he can do. he's found a thing he's enjoying, I shouldn't ruin it for my own confusion.

yamneko: (anime)

it's so hard to say why this change happened. have my tastes changed since I got older? I had started birth control and moved away from my family and friends, and I don't think I had  really recovered since then.  i mean I was never super motivated and invested in stuff to such a high degree to begin with, but it was fun with people around into the same thing.


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